Just over two years ago I left Anchorage and moved to a 16′ x 20′ 2-story cabin that I built when I was 17 years old, located in remote Tuxedni Bay, Alaska; where I paint, carve, weave, meditate, write essays and poetry and take photographs.

It took a long time to get here and I dreamed and planned and visualized this life for a long time. Now, living my dream.

I grew up here on this land that my grandfather homsteaded in the 1940’s. The land has been used for all sorts of things from a fox farm to a cannery.

Tuxedni Bay is on the West Side of Cook Inlet across from Ninilchik. The current population of Tuxedni Bay is now one. People come to fish in the summer but everyone leaves in the winter except me.

I grew up fishing. When I was eight years old I was given my grandmother’s fishing permit. This meant that I had to be present, and on the boat while all fishing was done. So, essentially, I have been self employed most of my life, starting at age eight. I sold my permit in order to purchase the property in 1998.

I started running my own skiff when i was 13 with my little 11 year old sister as deckhand. We loved fishing in grandpa’s old wooden skiffs. When we were old enough to decide what to wear, we wore the traditional hats with the long bill in back (like the Gorton’s fisherman logo), and long dark green coats with hipboots because we liked the old, “oilskins,” and hats my grandfather used to wear, and thought they were damn cool. What I loved most about fishing was the feeling of the flat bottomed skiff planing along the surface of the water, the sun dancing on the water, and the feeling of the wind in my hair.

It feels awesome to not wear makeup, not worry about how I may appear, not wear uncomfortable shoes, and just live my day-to-day life like a human being — not choosing a societally determined role, not needing some other human being to feel complete, and not trying to be what I could never be.

I have always been interested in social paradigms (large scale and small scale), i.e. spirituality, attitude, mental attachments, state of mind, and how these manifest in material culture as religion, philosophy, art and political expression in society and style. So this is what I explore in my writing and research and poetry.

Have practiced different forms of tantric meditation for over 25 years and had the blessed experience of entering samadhi in 2009. It s a state of great joy. Here at my cabin, during this long endurance, I have had many experiences, with working on steadiness of posture maintaining peace, being joyful, and continuing to love unconditionally and nurturing this open heart, enduring some horrific events, spirtually, emotionally, and physically and dealing with with some squatters that moved in recently as well as a Native Corporation that just finished clearcutting much of the land surrounding mine and is now working on starting a tourist lodge. I discovered that I have balls of steel, and nerves of steel, and have become much more able to maintain joy and serenity in the face of turbulent circumstances. So I can say boldly and utterly truthfully, I LOVE YOU deeply and compasionately….And I mean it.

Brief Bio:
This is from: http://www.carolinekroll.com/

Caroline Kroll is Eagle Clan Wolf House, Tsimshian and Nisga’a, weaver, painter, carver, poet, essayist and meditation instructor.

Caroline is exploring traditional and modern art, style, and culture through time, and how these express concepts of the immortal or beyond the immortal, beyond the material, beyond time, beyond nihilism, beyond eternalism. In 1994 Caroline took time off from pursuing degrees in Anthropology and Fine Art at Stanford University to travel to Ketchikan to learn to weave in the Ravenstail style. Since that time, Caroline has sought to unify the pre-contact mind with her art, painting portals bridging the divide between anthropology and art, incorporating dream symbolism and cave art in her work. Through exploring her own mind, and practicing traditional art forms, her art has evolved to express the subtle timeless language of spirit. Time and perspective have changed what is considered to be Tsimshian style, which is not so static as once believed, and is being perpetually redefined by contemporary artists like Caroline.

Caroline’s teachers include Enrique Chagoya (painting, silk painting & mixed media), Kristina Branch (painting), Miriam Hitchcock (painting), Dorica Jackson (Chilkat weaving), Nathan Jackson (Tlingit bulge bentwood box), David Boxley (Tsimshian mask and feast bowl) Kathy Rousseau (Ravenstail weaving), Cheryl Samuel (Ravenstail robe), Irene Bienek (Tsimshian cedar bark weaving), Diane Douglas-Willard (Haida cedar bark hat), Della Cheney (Haida cedar bark hat), and Jack Walsh (painting, sculpture, printmaking, ceramic art).

2010 Featured Artist, Contemporary Native Art Celebration, Alaska Native Heritage Center

2009 Apprenticeship, Ravenstail robe with Cheryl Samuel, author of The Raven’s Tail & The Chilkat Dancing Blanket

2008 Project Award, Rasmuson Foundation, carving Individual Artist Award, Alaska State Council on the Arts National Endowment for the Arts, weaving

2007 CAPS Award, Alaska Native Arts Foundation, weaving 2006 Award from the CIRI Foundation, carving, beadwork and Chilkat weaving

“Whether it is my intention or not, I am always expressing a link to the past, and a dream of the future.”
–Caroline Kroll

“For many years it seemed like people weren’t capable of loving me as much as I loved them. At some point I gave up worrying about it and just loved them anyway, now I can’t even quantify how much love there is because love is all there is.”
–Caroline Kroll

28 thoughts on “About

  1. I have to say that I went to school with you but didnt know you. But I must say that I am impressed and very few people impress me . Be carefull out there alaska can be very unforgiving.

    1. Thank you Russell. I appreciate your comment. I decided to do this because I write a lot these days and seem to have a lot to say. I never used to write much at the cabin, but since I moved here, it’s my favorite thing to do. Yep. I hear you.

  2. Lovely that you seemed to have found your heaven on earth. Great that you managed to live a day-to-day life like a human being, and this in a seemingly marvellous nature.

    (Are you aware that underneath “alaskawildgirl” the “Girl Alone in a Remote Alaskan Cabin: An Outsider’s Perspective” cannot be noticed in the browser because of the colour of the letter-type? Perhaps an other colour for the letters could make it visible.)

    Sorry for my remarks, but it is because I do find you have something to say to the world and I do hope more readers shall be able to find your place where you want to share your wisdom and art with others.
    God Bless.

    1. Thank you Marcus. I appreciate your comments. Like a human being, that is a good way of putting it. No running water yet, and lots of wood gathering and water carrying, and it is very much a joyful meditation. Yes, I can’t change the font color it seems, maybe I will change the background color. God bless you friend. Blessings and love.

  3. Hello! We haven’t met but I saw you liked my blog. I skimmed your bio. You know Miriam Hitchcock?! She taught me how to draw (and how to see) at UC Santa Cruz. 🙂

  4. Hey mattinindo I too took a class from Miriam Hitchcock Painting I or II or some such title. Santa Cruz is a lovely place. Seems you’ve traveled far…

  5. It was VERY refreshing reading what you had to say and the lifestyle you have chosen to follow. You DO have “Ball’s” to be out there all alone. It’s sad to hear about them cutting down the trees AND the fact of someone wanting to set up a “Tourist Lodge”. It takes away the desolation and the beauty. I’m from California and now have a place in Alaska on the Kenai Peninsula (which i closed to the public) and enjoy the seclusion of the area I’m in. I’d like to stay in touch with you as well as hear some of your stories of being “Out there & Alone”.

    1. Thank you Roland. Each thing was difficult to see. it’s true. I am glad you appreciate the lifestyle. Sounds like you have a good life there. Sounds wonderful. Let’s keep in touch.

      1. As it’s now November and winter is setting in on you, I was curious as to how you are faring. Are you still staying strong and planning to STAY out there. Is it possible for you to post some more pix of where you’re at? I always love the Alaska scenery!

  6. Wow, you seem to lead a very interesting life! Mind sending me an email? I’d like to ask you some questions on what inspired you to move and how you maintain living in comfort while being completely isolated. Thanks.

  7. Hi Caroline, just wanted to say hi, I’m going to be flying over this summer taken folks for day trips to see the bears just down at silver salmon creek. Was just looking for info on Tuxedni Bay and it was a pleasant surprise to learn about you. Proud of you for choosing to focus on what is truly important , Enjoy the sun .😊

  8. I was doing a google search today of my Great Auntie Irene, my Grandma Greta’s older sister, and was pleasantly surprised to find your site.

  9. Caroline,I have lived and worked in bush Alaska for 2 decades now.The last 9 years at a lakefront parcel I own.Your life is not foreign to me.I understand you completely.Society encroaches on us more every year.As you I am part time hermit due to occupation.Stay warm.

  10. Hello Caroline! I don’t know if you remember me, but my name is Wes. I’m your long-lost brother. I ran across your website and was amazed by your sense of wonder and adventure! I can honestly tell you that I’m very proud of you and where life has led you. Hang in there, sis…

  11. Hey,Caroline,greetings!

    I’ve never actually met you,but me and my buddy were camping on Chisik Is.,and had our herring nets set right next to yours,and i’ll never forget(without any bullshit)how you’d suddenly drift out of the fog,in that old skiff of yours…It was magical,all of it,and a life-time ago…(’88…?)

    It’s incredible to’ve stumbled into this blog of yours,by the sheerest accident,and had all these memories come flooding in…
    Good for you for choosing to stay there,i’ve left a part of my soul in that bay even in those few short weeks.
    I’ve made a somewhat similar choice in my life,and am now hermit/river-rat/village idiot on the mighty,muddy Yukon,between the villages of Ruby and Galena…If you’re ever in the ‘hood,for whatever reason,holler!(just ask anyone for where Jake the Mad Russian is at that time,i’d be happy to meet you in person,and if you ever needed a boat,nets,or any other equipment on the river,everything i have is at your disposal).
    All the VERY best,cheers!

  12. Caroline,
    Hello from nearby Crescent Lake. If willing I would very much like to establish a dialogue without you. I have worked and recreated in the Crescent River, Lake, Valley and Tuxedni Bay region for the past 13 years. I certainly consider this my home and it’s preservation is very important me. My email has been submitted. I look forward to hearing from you. Thanks, Ryan

    1. Hi Ryan,
      Hello! Thanks for getting in touch. Sorry it has taken so long to respond. I also consider this my home. Seven years now year-round and it is such a great place to live. I would not want to be anywhere else. Water challenges. The water was fracked around 1999 in this area but it seems to finally be clearer and less suds. Might be drinkable again soon. The preservation is very important to me as well since that one little issue with the water has resulted in a heck of a lot spent on shipping in bottled water. Apparently it happened to the Chinitna Bear Camp area as well.

  13. Hey Caroline, very cool website and hope you are doing fine out there, and you do have ovaries of steel ! I wish I had that kind of determination you have to get out of the rat race. Peace, and I really enjoy reading your stories about remote Alaska so please keep them coming. John from New Jersey

    1. Thank you so much, John! I appreciate your kind words. It’s been quite the adventure. I have a ton of new pics and new info to update now and I think you guys and your feedback have really given me some ideas for the direction I want to take this.

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